Friday, July 06, 2007

The Princess and i

After over a year of waiting, I finally got a chance to have a session with Princess Grace. What a work out. Ha! It felt like talking to a celebrity.

I'll jump right to it. I didn't get to cum, because I previously mentioned, to Princess Grace, I came earlier, that morning. She got very aggressive with me, which is how I love it. It was a good first run however, if I ever get another chance with her, I know the intensity will rise; as Princess has warned me already.

Thank you very much, Princess Grace, for the session. You were a lot of fun and very sexy and erotic. I appologize for my lack of size, but I hope it was fun for you.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.

Hello. My name is Brandon, aka GG and I'm a chronic masturbator. I love stroking off to and for women. I love turning a women on because she knows and loves watching me stroke my penis. I'm starting to sound like the weirdo from Peter Files.

For the past 32 days, i have been denied orgasm from Mistress Elizabeth. I adore her and the fun I have with her. She has been very helpful in guiding through this difficult time. I choose to stay frustrated within my testicles, as they inflame and grow larger each day, due to not having any release, like they normally would, 1 to 2 times a day.

Throughout this time of not releasing my sperm, I have seen a transformation within my lifestyle. I do not waste time wanking, when I should be going to work or working on home projects. My social life has always been great but latley, women, especially the one I care about, has been giving me a lot of attention, as well as her friends. I celebrated my 27th birthday at a club, last week; and her and her gorgous friends were throwing themselves at me, left and right. And I have pictures to prove it.

And last but not least, a certain confidence has come over me. It has allowed me to combat any negativity, adversaries or anything else in my way. It's almost like a new me. However, something occured just minutes before I wrote what you are reading.

I was talking to Ms. Elizabeth and wanting to catch up with her, since it has been almost, if not a week since we last talked. When all of a sudden, a since of submission to her every way came over me. I felt like dropping to my knees and asking her, "How may I serve you today?".

I continued to talk with her and I found myself not like the suave guy I am to her. I found myself wanting to know if I may please her, entertain her and serve her. It's almost like I want to surrender and say, "do what you will". However, I am not there, yet.

Before chatting with her, I had a dream of me and a previous female faculty staff member from either college or high school, was in a room with me, dressed in a women's business suit. I found myself, for some reason, knowing she was a dom and begging to be her slave. WTF? Minutes later, when I awoke, I was talking with Ms. Elizabeth and found myself thinking of her as the faculty staff memeber, from my dream.

I want to release infront of my mistress. She may find it nasty, but I want her to have some fun with me and humiliate myself for her amusement. There is a duel in my mind. One side says to keep on the right path and the other wants me to go back to my perverted ways. And I wouldn't mind being perverted again. But I love having control over myself.

Fuck it, I want to release infront of my beautiful mistress and continue having fun. My vission is blury. It does feel like I'm in the movie 40days 40nights and I'm walking through the shadow of death.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Yes my balls hurt. 2 Bitch Tuesday once again

You guessed it. 2 Bitch Tuesday humiliates GG once again. Only this time Ms Madison came back to her site, this week, and decided to partake in some ball bashing with Ms. Elizabeth. I'm sure Ms. Elizabeth was having way to much fun and laughs on my expense; she just wanted so bad to share me on camera performing the audio she recorded of her latest cbt session. "Ouch" could not discribe it.

So, I called up (in my pantys) and had a awesome but scary time with Ms Elizabeth and Ms Madison. They were fun to laugh with about me however, it was scary to wait and see what was next on their list of torture. I could hear them laugh at me quitely, trying hard to concentrate on the screen but just couldn't . They thought it was so funny when they would hear Ms. Elizabeth's voice guide me through 5 slaps, to my testicles, in a row. Then an additional 1 for fun. I krindged in my seat holding my sac.

After the audio, Ms. Elizabeth was closing down the session, but not before she made me slap my balls again for her. Then, after getting off the floor, I asked if I may have another slap, this time it would be for Ms. Madison. They both agreed and let me smack my balls one last time. I dropped to the floor like a sac of potatoes. "Oooohhhh!", they both said to the two ball slaps. The both of them laughed, wickedly, as it was evil, but so fucking erotic and exciting.

I still was not allowed to cum. But, that was ok, as I am trying to save up money for an hour call with Ms Elizabeth to hopefully gain her acceptance and allow me to humiliate myself by releasing my fluid infront of her. I want my moans and whimpers to delight her.

She told Ms. Madison, like she told the last mistress for TBT, that I was a chronic mastorbator. As humiliating and embarassing as that sounds, it makes me that much harder and want to stroke for her, even more. I don't want to admit it, but I guess I am one. Over the years, to many girls have found out about my habit. However, they were very cool with it, as our these ladies.

But, I don't think I'm as bad as some of thouse sick fucks from the boards on the net. A lot of them are older men who do it way more than me and they have with wifes. Interesting.

Ok mean mistresses, let me have. Especially my luv, Ms. Elizabeth.

18 Days. Not Good

It has now been 18 mother fucking days since my last cum shot. I'm going crazy, at night. I can not take it. Everyday it's like a new record for me. Like the DJ stockexchange breaking records every day.

And the worst part about it is, when ever I do get an opportunity to call Ms. Elizabeth, my opportunity is crumbled due to other circumstances. IE, I have to go somewhere, not enough money, I'm not home alone. I'm surprised my testicles have not been aching very bad. Perhaps its because I've been listening to Elizabeth's recording about beating balls. Ouch!

Well, I hope to end this nightmare very soon. It has been torturous to me.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

I feel like the dude from 40DAYS & 40NIGHTS

So, today marks day 16 without a cum shot. Sounds disgusing, I know. I woke up this morning feeling a bit horny since one on my last things I did last night was talk to Ms. Elizabeth about when we can schdule another phone call and then logged onto The Peter Files to see what fello bators were up to. Thouse guys are worse than me. Ha!

There have been times, throughout the years, when I have been going out with a girl and I had no urge to cum or jack off, for that matter; because I felt like I didn't need to express myself, sexually. As you can see, I have no girl I'm seeing, so masturbation or my left hand has been my closest companion.

I feel like the dude from 40 DAYS AND 40 NIGHTS. I need to release and can't take it anymore. But, then what? Will I be put on a special basis where I am only to cum when Ms. Elizabeth or maybe someone else allows me to? Or, will I go back to my ways and jack off when ever I want to with a nice cum? I don't know what I want. Over all, I know having my penis and balls controlled by Ms. Elizabeth is the best thing.

I miss playing with myself however, I don't miss acting "goony" when I release. But, I'd sure like to act that way toward my mistress; just so she could have fun with it. Much like when her and another mistress had fun when my penis shrunk infront of them. Thouse two laughed, so hard.

Maybe Ms. Elizabeth was right. I am a little chronic masturbator. If I had to choose, I wouldn't be. I don't want to grow up like the old men on CC or some Yahoo Groups I have found where the average age is 50 and they're still wanking away. And some of those guys are way more disgusting than me, from appearance to what they like doing to themselves. I want to be a pet where any mistress would not only enjoy my company and appearance but releaved to have a session with me.

I don't think anything will be release till next week. Until then, keep checking back for updates. And leave a comment you wankers and doms.

Friday, March 02, 2007

Day 14. Still Alive and feeling Better

Ever watched your's or a man's nuts drop? Well that is how I look when you see my pair, dangling to and frow. Heavy are they now, filled with cream, just wanting to be shot out. And yet, my friends can not beleave that I have not shot in 2 weeks.

My adoring Mistress Elizabeth has full control of my "pathetic pricklett", as she so puts it. I have come to the realization, it dosent measure up to her standards. However, I want to make sure she is visually and mentally satisfied. Like the women I have a hart for, in my life, I strive to make sure they are getting quality.

Tommarrow, I may have my day of realease. If so, I hope to make a big cum for my Mistress. She deserves it.

Thank you.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

GG gets Humiliated by 2 Masturbatrixs'

As a man, have you ever been in a vunnerable position with two dominating women? Your strip down to your underware, in this case pantys, then stiped again till your totally naked; and you just know this couldn't be good. But in the end, your not sure if opening yourself up was the right thing to do. However, your down to try it again.

Tuesday was the weekly session of 2 Bitch Tuesday. Ms. Elizabeth usually conducts this specail 2 dom session with co worker Ms. Madison. The two of them, have guys like us, call to get our manhood striped, distroied and be known how pathetic we are, for doing what we do. Now this might sound insane however, for a male sub this could be a awesome experience with benefits.

After Moday/Tuesday early monrning's session with Ms. Elizabeth, she instructed me to come to the humiliation chat at
2BitchTuesday.Com and participate, if I wanted to cum. Me going crazy these last few days, jumped on the opportunity and found a way to afford a 2 mistress at once call. Only this time, Ms. Madison was not involved but Ms.Dominque, another masturbarix was filling in for her.

So, the three of us were all logged on with my web cam pointed right at me. Elizabeth told me to strip, as I got down to my pantys. I had to turn around for the both of them. I think they liked my ass. They sure took their time seeing it and loved when I smaked it for them. Next I was told to remove my pantys and sit down, as I was to reenact my performance from the previous night's Ballbusting audio, as it played on my computer. Elizabeth could not wait to show Dominque how I acted.

During this whole time, Dominque was being clued in on me and what I did last night that made Elizabeth crack up. The audio only ran for a few seconds until it stoped. I tried again and the same thing happend. Dominque pointed out to me I was losing my erection. I looked down and said, "Yes, its shrinking back down". Wrong choice of words, as the two doms laughed so hard, I wouldn't be surprised if one of them wet their pants. Someone mentioned while laughing aloud, "It like his dick heard the audio and went all the way back in him". Pointing to the fact that my balls and dick took a beating that night.

These women would not stop laughing, for a few minutes. Here I was naked, with a sorry look on my face, trying to laugh with them, but feeling so looserish. Elizabeth pointed out how pathetic I looked.

Time elapsed as I finished wanking with my pantys on my "dicklet" or "dickie" (Elizabeth and Dominque called it) for Ms. Dominque; I was instructed to place the pantys back on me and told since I lost my erection so many times, I was not allowed to cum tonight. I did not want this to happend, but obeyed orders.

Then Ms. Elizabeth told me to take a shower and repeat what I did a few days ago; which was to get my cock soaped up and imagin I'm doing her in the shower. But the two masturbatrixs' boldly told me, "NOT TO CUM!" . I agreed as we finished our twenty minute session with my tale tucked between my legs. Or, in this case, my penis tucked near my ass. I was the object of redicule in a cfnm/humiliation session. It was degrading, but man what a rush.

Later on, I messaged Ms. Elizabeth on my status as she wanted me instructed. She permitted me not to touch my cock at all. Untill I call again, in which she might let me cum. I got worried tonight. I felt like I had to pee but, as I went to the bathroom, my penis was leaking seman. Not a lot of seman but not a small amount eaither. OMG! What am I to do? All I could think was I might cum without any hands. IE. a wet dream. And I hate wet dreams.

We shall see what happends to Brandon aka GG.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Day 12 Pathetic, Teased and wanting to cum.

So it is day 12 with out a release of cum from my body. My balls are aching and I am acting the fool. I'll catch myself making wimppy noises and phrases, begging my Mistress to let me cum and thinking more about being a perverted guy infront of hot women. My penis stays hard most of the day.

Last night, I was telling Ms. Elizabeth all my latest news, as she was cracking up. Finally she wanted me to listen to Bonboy57s audio A NEW COCK TEASING/BALL CRUSHING AUDIO . I did, twice. Smaking my balls hard each time. Ms. Elizabeth had a ball."the fact that you did it twice is amusing as all hell", she commented.

As I sit here stroking, I have to reach the edge 3 times, today. Then maybe I get to have a session with her and possibly Mistress Madison for a 2 Bitch Tuesday session. Not sure if I could afford it, yet.. I hope I make it throught.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Going on day 10 with no release.

Ms. Elizabeth, who just launched a bran new site (you should take a look at it), denied me of cumming ten days ago. During our last phone call on Friday night/Saturday Morning, we went throughh a lite stroke session with a lot of talk about what our sessions will be like further down the line. I had proudly told her I did not want to cum tonight. She felt good to hear me say thouse words, as she wasent going to allow my little winky any release.

Now it's Sunday night and I am so horny! This past weekend was a big tease with the phone call and a couple of exotic dance clubs I attended. My balls are starting to build pressure. I want a fine dominate women to just knee me in the nuts. Maybe I'll calm down, then.

On a much sadder note, Ms. Elizabeth is out of commission due to a ray of storms in her area. I'm glad she is ok and hope she gets through this ordeal. It's tough getting through natural disasters. Almost as tough as getting through denial of orgasm when your so use to wanking.

Sorry for the ranting. I just wanted to give you my update. Do I have any fellow wankers who know what I'm talking about? Maybe the other mistresses would like to respond?

Friday, February 23, 2007

its been a week

since I last had a cum shot. Thanks to Ms. Elizabeth, I have been good at holding back and feel more relaxed. I'm ready to continue to have control over my cock or to let mistress hear and see me cum. Not sure what i want to do.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

The Stroke A Thon, Mardi Gras style

So I decided to partake in my first stroke-a-thon this past weekend. Embracing my perverted side, I wanted to choose Ms. Elizabeth to "do the honors" and have her way with my weakness for masturbation. As I previously mentioned, I have been masturbating a lot latley. Sometimes, 2 to 3 times a day and always cumming. I love it, but was worried I could be doing it in excess. Perhaps its something in the air?

I called Mistress as soon as the marathon opened, midnight pst. Mistress had me strip off my clothing and put on the black panty's she knows I have. My orders were to stroke through the pantys and get nice and hard. As time went on, I got my first taste of some CBT. She had me wack my penis a few times, give my balls a nice smack and finally a firm squeez. It was a bit painful, but its only a introduction. Now, I'm not normally into my privates being beaten up, however. I am curious to see how a dominate women can take control of me through my cock and balls; including a bit of kicking or what have you.

Finally, I let the cat out of the bag, as I told Ms. Elizabeth that I have been masturbating and cumming in excess, when asked if I wanted to cum. She desided to deny me of such pleasure, or atleast till the next time we chat. I'm glad, because I feel more empowered over myself. However, last night I was getting the urge to stroke off, but decided to keep myself busy in other ways. As in, looking at the topless pictures Mistress sent me, for calling her up during the marathon.

Don' t get it twisted, I still have permission to stroke, but I am going to wait in cumming till atleast the next time I talk with Mistress Elizabeth, as she has yet to hear this young buck blow his load. Hope she would like it.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Too much wanking this past week

When I came to Cock Control. Com, I looked for guidence and a masturbatrix to help me ease my frequent masturbation and orgasm habits, get into new fantacies and elevate my over all man hood. And it happend a year ago with the help of Ms. Tia. Thank you, Mistress.

A year later, I'm back at being super honey again, and find myself a member to more masturbation websites, podcasts and groups, as well as wanking a bit more than normal. I love it and I feel accepted by the groups and sites I visit.

It has not affected my personal life what so ever; which is good. However, I seem to be going back to a problem I had a year ago, which was not having a woman as my companion. When it comes to females, I'm good with the game, have a lot to offer, but the girls in my area are just not sold on the total package. Ha!

It sucks and I hate it. So, in the mean time, I'm going to enjoy being a wanker, a pervert, a masturbator, and a little stroker boy ect. So, mistresses, if your reading this blog, I'm open game. Have your fun. Ha!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

The pleasure was mine

I'm just going to start out by writing I miss Misstress Elizabeth . For the past few months, I have been having some great conversations with her, including a session not to long ago. She's a lot of fun and I miss her. So, where ever you are, I hope your doing fine and you come back, soon.

Also, I see that Ms. Xaria has moved on from CC and onto another site. I wish her well and best of luck with her new venture.

Finally, I have been listening to a male masturbation podcast called Pillow Talk featuring Ms. Ava. She is new to CC and I didn't know much about her, till I finally had a chance to talk with her, early this monrning. Ava is an intelligent women. She really had a lot of intresting concepts about male sexuality to express and it was turning me on, to be honest. However, just about any intelliigent woman who can talk about sex can be sexy, in my mind.

Great job, Ms. Ally, in picking up some great additions to CC. I'm looking forward to spending time with a lot of you mistresses in '07. Keep up the good work.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

A year in review of 2006

It is now 2007, and I'm not so much the little stroker boy I once was in 2006. Though it is just the first of the year, anything could happen.

2006 started out in desperate times. I was a sad and lonely guy who was down on his luck with women, sex hungry but could only get any from his own left hand. Till one night, I discoveed Cock Control.Com (CC) after googling about male masturbation.

I was intrigued and excited that such a site existed. Finally, I could be myself amongst others. Only thing about this phone sex site, I was one of the very young guys, as a customer. I did not know that many older men had the problem on chronic masturbation ( like I did) and thought there must be something wrong with me. While on the CC site, I learned that there were men who liked similar fantasies and fetishes like me but, learned much, much more about fetishes that I have never heard of, including bdsm.

After a short while, I decided to email Ms.Ally, of CC, to help me pick between 2 mistresses about my problem with all time favorite practice of masturbation. I figured I could atleast share my secret habit with a women who could also have fun with me, at the same time.

I chose Ms. Tia to put me through a weeks worth of training. As you can see from the begining of this blog, the training was exciting and eye opening, as Ms.Tia helped me restore myself as a man. Down the road I chose a few other mistresses to have there way with me. They were Ms. Xaria and Ms. Elizabeth. Both were very fun and I miss there company.

Now it is 2007, I feel much better about myself. I walk taller as I have some fine ladies on my team. I owe part of this success to CC as I have learned to control my urges and that submitting to a powerful women, can be a very fun thing to do.