As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.

Hello. My name is Brandon, aka GG and I'm a chronic masturbator. I love stroking off to and for women. I love turning a women on because she knows and loves watching me stroke my penis. I'm starting to sound like the weirdo from Peter Files.

For the past 32 days, i have been denied orgasm from Mistress Elizabeth. I adore her and the fun I have with her. She has been very helpful in guiding through this difficult time. I choose to stay frustrated within my testicles, as they inflame and grow larger each day, due to not having any release, like they normally would, 1 to 2 times a day.

Throughout this time of not releasing my sperm, I have seen a transformation within my lifestyle. I do not waste time wanking, when I should be going to work or working on home projects. My social life has always been great but latley, women, especially the one I care about, has been giving me a lot of attention, as well as her friends. I celebrated my 27th birthday at a club, last week; and her and her gorgous friends were throwing themselves at me, left and right. And I have pictures to prove it.

And last but not least, a certain confidence has come over me. It has allowed me to combat any negativity, adversaries or anything else in my way. It's almost like a new me. However, something occured just minutes before I wrote what you are reading.

I was talking to Ms. Elizabeth and wanting to catch up with her, since it has been almost, if not a week since we last talked. When all of a sudden, a since of submission to her every way came over me. I felt like dropping to my knees and asking her, "How may I serve you today?".

I continued to talk with her and I found myself not like the suave guy I am to her. I found myself wanting to know if I may please her, entertain her and serve her. It's almost like I want to surrender and say, "do what you will". However, I am not there, yet.

Before chatting with her, I had a dream of me and a previous female faculty staff member from either college or high school, was in a room with me, dressed in a women's business suit. I found myself, for some reason, knowing she was a dom and begging to be her slave. WTF? Minutes later, when I awoke, I was talking with Ms. Elizabeth and found myself thinking of her as the faculty staff memeber, from my dream.

I want to release infront of my mistress. She may find it nasty, but I want her to have some fun with me and humiliate myself for her amusement. There is a duel in my mind. One side says to keep on the right path and the other wants me to go back to my perverted ways. And I wouldn't mind being perverted again. But I love having control over myself.

Fuck it, I want to release infront of my beautiful mistress and continue having fun. My vission is blury. It does feel like I'm in the movie 40days 40nights and I'm walking through the shadow of death.

Yes my balls hurt. 2 Bitch Tuesday once again

You guessed it. 2 Bitch Tuesday humiliates GG once again. Only this time Ms Madison came back to her site, this week, and decided to partake in some ball bashing with Ms. Elizabeth. I'm sure Ms. Elizabeth was having way to much fun and laughs on my expense; she just wanted so bad to share me on camera performing the audio she recorded of her latest cbt session. "Ouch" could not discribe it.

So, I called up (in my pantys) and had a awesome but scary time with Ms Elizabeth and Ms Madison. They were fun to laugh with about me however, it was scary to wait and see what was next on their list of torture. I could hear them laugh at me quitely, trying hard to concentrate on the screen but just couldn't . They thought it was so funny when they would hear Ms. Elizabeth's voice guide me through 5 slaps, to my testicles, in a row. Then an additional 1 for fun. I krindged in my seat holding my sac.

After the audio, Ms. Elizabeth was closing down the session, but not before she made me slap my balls again for her. Then, after getting off the floor, I asked if I may have another slap, this time it would be for Ms. Madison. They both agreed and let me smack my balls one last time. I dropped to the floor like a sac of potatoes. "Oooohhhh!", they both said to the two ball slaps. The both of them laughed, wickedly, as it was evil, but so fucking erotic and exciting.

I still was not allowed to cum. But, that was ok, as I am trying to save up money for an hour call with Ms Elizabeth to hopefully gain her acceptance and allow me to humiliate myself by releasing my fluid infront of her. I want my moans and whimpers to delight her.

She told Ms. Madison, like she told the last mistress for TBT, that I was a chronic mastorbator. As humiliating and embarassing as that sounds, it makes me that much harder and want to stroke for her, even more. I don't want to admit it, but I guess I am one. Over the years, to many girls have found out about my habit. However, they were very cool with it, as our these ladies.

But, I don't think I'm as bad as some of thouse sick fucks from the boards on the net. A lot of them are older men who do it way more than me and they have with wifes. Interesting.

Ok mean mistresses, let me have. Especially my luv, Ms. Elizabeth.

18 Days. Not Good

It has now been 18 mother fucking days since my last cum shot. I'm going crazy, at night. I can not take it. Everyday it's like a new record for me. Like the DJ stockexchange breaking records every day.

And the worst part about it is, when ever I do get an opportunity to call Ms. Elizabeth, my opportunity is crumbled due to other circumstances. IE, I have to go somewhere, not enough money, I'm not home alone. I'm surprised my testicles have not been aching very bad. Perhaps its because I've been listening to Elizabeth's recording about beating balls. Ouch!

Well, I hope to end this nightmare very soon. It has been torturous to me.

I feel like the dude from 40DAYS & 40NIGHTS

So, today marks day 16 without a cum shot. Sounds disgusing, I know. I woke up this morning feeling a bit horny since one on my last things I did last night was talk to Ms. Elizabeth about when we can schdule another phone call and then logged onto The Peter Files to see what fello bators were up to. Thouse guys are worse than me. Ha!

There have been times, throughout the years, when I have been going out with a girl and I had no urge to cum or jack off, for that matter; because I felt like I didn't need to express myself, sexually. As you can see, I have no girl I'm seeing, so masturbation or my left hand has been my closest companion.

I feel like the dude from 40 DAYS AND 40 NIGHTS. I need to release and can't take it anymore. But, then what? Will I be put on a special basis where I am only to cum when Ms. Elizabeth or maybe someone else allows me to? Or, will I go back to my ways and jack off when ever I want to with a nice cum? I don't know what I want. Over all, I know having my penis and balls controlled by Ms. Elizabeth is the best thing.

I miss playing with myself however, I don't miss acting "goony" when I release. But, I'd sure like to act that way toward my mistress; just so she could have fun with it. Much like when her and another mistress had fun when my penis shrunk infront of them. Thouse two laughed, so hard.

Maybe Ms. Elizabeth was right. I am a little chronic masturbator. If I had to choose, I wouldn't be. I don't want to grow up like the old men on CC or some Yahoo Groups I have found where the average age is 50 and they're still wanking away. And some of those guys are way more disgusting than me, from appearance to what they like doing to themselves. I want to be a pet where any mistress would not only enjoy my company and appearance but releaved to have a session with me.

I don't think anything will be release till next week. Until then, keep checking back for updates. And leave a comment you wankers and doms.

Day 14. Still Alive and feeling Better

Ever watched your's or a man's nuts drop? Well that is how I look when you see my pair, dangling to and frow. Heavy are they now, filled with cream, just wanting to be shot out. And yet, my friends can not beleave that I have not shot in 2 weeks.

My adoring Mistress Elizabeth has full control of my "pathetic pricklett", as she so puts it. I have come to the realization, it dosent measure up to her standards. However, I want to make sure she is visually and mentally satisfied. Like the women I have a hart for, in my life, I strive to make sure they are getting quality.

Tommarrow, I may have my day of realease. If so, I hope to make a big cum for my Mistress. She deserves it.

Thank you.